So here I am again. A choice is made, not from desire but out of necessity. I have breastfed our be

So here I am again. A choice is made, not from desire but out of necessity. I have breastfed our beautiful son for four months, but now I must stop and that makes me actually kind of sad. I know four months is really good and not less than four times as long as I worked late, but boo! Now it went just as well. "But Maibritt, we must of course all choose. nike jobs Every day is filled with choices. Such is life - you can not have it all." Yes, we must all choose, and it is as such not the choice I have difficulty with it is that I do not feel it's something I decide. I'm forced into it. The choices I see others refer to when I've had this conversation with someone, ala "Can there both manage to go to spinning and Zumba?" Or "Ååårh I can probably ill find time to sit in the parents' council in both my children's classes." The kind of choices that to me is in the "Icing". It is the icing, the extra that makes life a little fun and exciting. Most of the "choice" I experience is liiidt more basic - the glaze is peeled away in advance, I will not even consider. I can, for example, consider cleaning. "Will I vacuum or make bathroom clean this week?" (Yes I wrote week) It could also be "Will I wash clothes or cook dinner today?" "If I put clothes together or change linen?" I can not do both things on the same day. It is the most basic things that turn into giant projects - and I have no idea why. All this is of course different when I get my medication. I do not reach the considerations that I mentioned earlier, but it will have, after all, both vacuumed and made the bathroom clean in the same week AND cleaned up in the living room AND done laundry (both wash, dry and put together). In fact, I suddenly nike jobs also make profits for a little exercise. Anyway, I'm standing here with this baby which is great. And a big brother which is great. I just want to stop time and nyyyyyde. Enjoy them and claim that they enjoy each other - everything is love. It's no different than so many others. The challenge is that even this bubble maternity and unfortunately only brother half the time running nike jobs from me. Not in the sense that things are not done, because nike jobs everyone has clean clothes, everyone gets food and brushed teeth. It's just like someone just set running belt 2 km / h too high. I do not fall of the band, it's just with tongue hanging out and max load all the time. That feeling can not stand long. Therefore, I choose now to start on medication again, which means that I am forced to stop breast-feeding. I could also say that I choose to stop breastfeeding when I am forced to start medication again. No matter what, there is this element of coercion. I find it at least as coercive because it is so clearly a clash of my values. Fortunately I have been through the mill and know what to do. I know myself well and have worked extensively with myself and therefore reverse the negative thoughts that can pop up into something nike jobs positive. Therefore, the thought I take with me on come I choose to start on medication and therefore stop breast-feeding because I want to be there for my children and my boyfriend. I choose them all and the life we have together, rather than fight a battle to remain drug free - a fight I very well know is already lost. (PS Follow along to see how the structure and language of my posts are changing now that I will soon get some medicine again)